“I am unworthy of all the kindness and faithfulness you have shown your servant. Indeed, I crossed over the Jordan with my staff, and now I have become two camps. Please rescue me from my brother Esau, for I am afraid of him; otherwise, he may come and attack me, the mothers, and their children. You have said, ‘I will cause you to prosper, and I will make your offspring like the sand of the sea, too numerous to be counted.’””
Genesis 32:10-12 CSB
I normally am so drawn to the wrestling with God part of this story between Jacob and the man, but today I’m more drawn to the relationship dynamics of Jacob and Esau.
A little backstory if you are just jumping into reading the Bible with me, Jacob stole Esau's blessing. I can only imagine the fear Jacob feels thinking of seeing his brother again. The last time he was home, rumor on the street was Esau was going to kill him. I love how the Lord works through His Word to help us know Him and heal. Currently, I can relate to Esau's feelings of betrayal. Im in a season where Im working through some feelings of deep betrayal. Im sure Esau has had some time to cool off and reframe what happened between he and Jacob. So before I skip to tomorrow's reading, Im sitting in the here and now and watching Jacob's experience. I think it is good for me to see the "other" persons perspective.
I’m impressed with how Jacob works like it’s up to him and prays like it’s up to God!
Jacob admitted he was afraid to see his brother again. I think he knew what he was afraid to face was real knowing what he did. My love for Jacob grew watching him do all he could to humble himself before Esau. He even cried out to the Lord.
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